Dump it off....

Ya up above is me and father time staying fly with my main man the park ranger up in big bend last summer.... just thought its only necessary to pop off some classic pics from time to time.


well getting home is always a bittersweet remembrance of the past for me... some of the good but more often than not a refresher course on all the bad. This break has allowed me to step outside of my life and just see what the hell is wrong with the program right now.

First of all, where is God? Well of course hes up in heaven doing his thing... but i mean where is he in my life. Its your typical im devoted... trail off... then hop back on the gravy train again... Frankly thats frustrating as hell. It is reassuring that it pains me that im not content with my relationship with him right now though. This tells that i do indeed actually give a rat's ass about my salvation and just how the Lord works in my life. Now time to dig in and start doing his work... which is always easier said than done. Its not that i dont want to do it... its just that it is certainly challenging at times. First prime objective is talking to Ed about his faith. His life is more jumbled than a game of 52 card pickup... there are 52 cards in a deck right? The drugs, the lack of responsibility, and the childish games are only the surface problems. Really i know it goes much deeper though. I know that he grew up catholic and to be honest with you i dont care what anybody thinks if you find jesus thru any avenue than the Lord has done his promised work. (catholic or not...) So maybe i can just get the ball rolling and perhaps throw some questions or some uncertainty into that mixed up puzzle of his. My mom seems almost unreachable at times... her rough emotional exterior (ill do things my way, relying on myself because i grew up that way) is a wall that seems like it reaches to the sky. Just maybe the lord will provide a twist in her life that will enable him to show his face to her.... who knows. Ok i could on with this list forever it seems like... which really sucks but then again it also gives glimmers of hope (i do emphasize glimmers).

Second, i seem lost to even myself... it seems like only Lindsay notices it lately i guess. But i have been down for quite some while... It hard having somebody you love move away for good even though its just a couple hours down the interstate. and yes im talking about barker. I just cant shake the fact that that i feel disconnected. I know i say it alot and its mightily over used but i dont know how else to put it. When i think about why i just confuse myself more... ok well Lindsay will kick my rear if say anything more probably... probably get embarrassed...

third, direction.... just a little bit would be nice. Well i thought that i was back on a good foot again in school but i guess i tricked myself. I was expecting 4 B's and one D... But good ole banner just told me that i got 3B's, 1c, and one big ole nasty smack ya up side the face F. Apparently i got a 78 or a 79 in the class i got a C in and my teacher decided to be a cold hearted arsehold. The F really took me by suprise though... well what can i do know but suck it up and go back to the grind for another 27 semesters. Atleast im taking a january short course thanks the help rosebaugh. He helped force me in ministry to fathers and im really looking forward to what i will run across in there.

Fourth, work... work in general at the post office... the possibility of working at footlocker again over this christmas break... Work. Work sucks i thank God that i am a full time student and only have to work part time.Granted i do wish that the part time work did pay more than 5.15. Sometimes i contemplate livin the crooked life selling drugs like tookie or 50 cent or one of those fly dudes that you come across from time to time... But that aint crap cause its only gonna catch up with ya. Id rather have a 100 the honest way in my bank account than a crooked Grand cause id probably end up droppin it on bail sooner or later anyhow. But what do i know... im middle class white suburban christian. But i do know a thing or to growing up under tom and cheryl's roof. a blessing and a curse...

Well hit me up with a comment or gimmie a holler...
Well this blog is just about wrapped up just like mutombo's ballin career,
Harrison the Great

you can bet your sweet aspercreme...

well as many of you may or may not know i like my diet soda... or pop if you will. If you dont know or dont care to know im sorry because i feel like it defines who i am. Needless to say i was harassed all thanksgiving break about why i shouldnt drink it because of the aspartame found in almost all diet soft drinks. Aspartame is a chemical that dissolves in the soda and is big part of why there is no calories in these diet sodas...
here are the possible side effects (not to mention the top 1292 reasons why i will probably die)

Adverse reactions and side effects of aspartame include:
Eyeblindness in one or both eyesdecreased vision and/or other eye problems such as: blurring, bright flashes, squiggly lines, tunnel vision, decreased night visionpain in one or both eyesdecreased tearstrouble with contact lensesbulging eyes
Eartinnitus - ringing or buzzing soundsevere intolerance of noisemarked hearing impairment
Neurologicepileptic seizuresheadaches, migraines and some severedizziness, unsteadiness, bothconfusion, memory loss, bothsevere drowsiness and sleepinessparesthesia or numbness of the limbssevere slurring of speechsevere hyperactivity and restless legsatypical facial painsevere tremors
Psychological/Psychiatricsevere depressionirritabilityaggressionanxietypersonality changesinsomniaphobias
Chestpalpitations, tachycardiashortness of breathrecent high blood pressure
Gastrointestinalnauseadiarrhea, sometimes with blood in stoolsabdominal painpain when swallowing
Skin and Allergiesitching without a rashlip and mouth reactionshivesaggravated respiratory allergies such as asthma
Endocrine and Metabolicloss of control of diabetesmenstrual changesmarked thinning or loss of hairmarked weight lossgradual weight gainaggravated low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)severe PMS
Otherfrequency of voiding and burning during urinationexcessive thirst, fluid retention, leg swelling, and bloatingincreased susceptibility to infection
Additional Symptoms of Aspartame Toxicity include the most critical symptoms of alldeathirreversible brain damagebirth defects, including mental retardationpeptic ulcersaspartame addiction and increased craving for sweetshyperactivity in childrensevere depressionaggressive behaviorsuicidal tendencies
Aspartame may trigger, mimic, or cause the following illnesses:Chronic Fatigue SyndromeEpstein-BarrPost-Polio SyndromeLyme DiseaseGrave’s DiseaseMeniere’s DiseaseAlzheimer’s DiseaseALSEpilepsyMultiple Sclerosis (MS)EMSHypothyroidismMercury sensitivity from Amalgam fillingsFibromyalgiaLupusnon-HodgkinsLymphomaAttention Deficit Disorder (ADD)


holy crap... say a prayer for me and all those peppy gap models that you see on tv

Jesus Rocks

harrison the first

Spice is nice

Mr. Ed Allred said the word damn tonight... which end of the spectrum is he on now?

Fat free turkey hold the stuffing....

Oh fond memories... Ok that was for my own satisfaction right there but now on to other topics...

First, while i was on the way to see my beloved lil spritz lindsay this weekend i listened in on an AM radio channel that was broadcasting a heated informative about terrorism on our Texas border. A senator talked about how several middle-eastern terrorist organizations have created organized training grounds just south of the Texas/Mexico border. He went on to speak about the gun fights that happen so commonly on the border that many border patrol officials don't even report them anymore. He continued to press on that we are walking right into a state of emergency if we don't do something very soon. Legislation has been put in place but the border is receiving no aide or resources to try to contain the situation.... Ok i don't know about you but i don't want to wake up one morning to hear that the Alamo is under seige again. I know that's merely only symbolism but honestly i feel like we have left the backdoor wide open while we are out fighting in the frontyard over in Iraq. Maybe im over reacting a little bit but why wait around for this situation to escalate...

In other news (tom browkaw voice)....
I just got back from celebrating my one year anniversary with Lindsay this weekend and it was really great. We have bumps from time to time just like any relationship because we don't live in Pleasantville but overall it was just a great time to celebrate where we have come from and to be curious about what will happen in the future for us. We saw Walk the Line and ive been walking around quoting Johnny Cash all weekend. I must have said, "Hello, im Johnny cash" about 1000 times. Needless to say i feel if i practice long enough maybe ill get the call for the sequel. It is just so interesting to see a movie about one indiviuals life and what they have been thru. I wish i could see the life of so many other great inspirations played out at the box office. Its interesting that even common people like my great grandmother has told me so many extravagant stories about her life that she doesn't have a multimillion dollar motion picture in the theatre right now. Time is just such a wild concept. Accumulating experience, good times, bad times, and everything that goes with it all. Aite im trailing off into dream world with all this.

Next on the lineup,
headed to North Carolina this Wednesday morning to see my pops. Ive got mixed feelings cause his girlfriend bugs the living hellfire and damnation of me. She is nice and does take care of my dad so i probably shouldn't be to harsh. It will be good to hang out with my little bro all week long and shoot the bull with my uncles. Turkey day rules... Enough said.

Amen...
by the way hank if your reading this you need to buy the knights a hunting lease asap you biggot

PULL IT, TWIST IT, BOP IT

great game... you should play it sometime

kettles boiling....

well to be perfectlly honest im still livid about my first entry going down the poop shoot but ive decided to suck it up and not to give up yet.

Today im in a terrible and wretched mood because: 1. the sky is falling 2. i have to go to beltway and paint for 4 hours with my class group (which are a little more than overwhelming) 3.Can't go to austin cause i have work AND MORE CLASS SERVICE WORK 4. I cant even see Lindsay tonight because i will be in coma from all the fumes from the paint. 5. I just learned from this entry that im a terrible whiner and an overall negative nancy right now.

I would like to write something insightful, borderline halarious, and maybe something inspirational but im in a nasty funk right now. I dont know what it is... i cant get over the fact that i dont enjoy this year as much as last year. Comparisons only hurt the issue further because it doesnt allow me to enjoy this year. This year is truly a blessing but i just dont know what is holding me back from loving life to the fullest. I want to live life with an extra pep in my step that is based on the principle of joy but im not filled with that right now. I know that the joy comes from the Lord but sometimes it is frustrating to find it when you really feel like your earnestly seeking the Lord but not finding anything new. Patience... thats just what you have to tell yourself i guess. Wait... and when it hits you again grip it tight and pull as many others into that joy as you can. Sharing joy is what reveals the Lord... atleast thats what i believe in some instances.

On a side note, Fantasy Basketball owns me right now. Whoever came up with this crap deserves a bump in their 401k or some kind perk for goodness sake. Just remember white boys produce numbers so never jump the gun in fantasy.

Peace on Earth,
holla im a silver dolla,
G-rod

In the flesh... 

trouble in river city already....

well i dont know else to say right now but i have been banging my head on the keyboard for the past 27 minutes because i just accidently erased 2 pages that i wrote for my first entry. Someone please go pawn me because im nearly worthless...